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Life after college has been quite the decrescendo. Slowly my daily planner has become less colorful, causing me to wonder if my life has followed suit. It’s an easy enough conclusion to reach, and from the surface it would seem so, wouldn’t it? It’s easy, especially in college, to put your self-value in what you do: Laura: musician, student, barista. But then came the real-world, and I realized, those student films I worked on, those songs I recorded, those lattes I made, those tests I aced,that diploma they gave: none of it mattered.
Yes, to a certain extent it did matter, but not to anyone else. I have to show the world what I’m made of again. I’ve realized that my problem has been perspective. If all of those things are the solely responsible for my self-worth, that leaves me with nothing now. So where does true substance come from?
The lyrics to “Objects of My Affection” spread my cards out on the table. I’ve realized that nothing can be a winning hand.
“And the question is, was i more alive then than i am now?
I happily have to disagree; I laugh more often now, i cry more often now…I am more me.”
-Laura Celeste
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This is an incredibly old post, Ive just noticed, but I had heard this song over the past week and couldn’t remember who it was by, just the haunting chorus quoted at the end on replay burned into my brain. When I googled the lyrics I came upon this blog.
I want to say thanks first, after reading your reflection on life after college it made sense to me why this song has been so stuck in my head. As someone preparing to graduate college in the next 10 weeks Im constantly reminded of the light at the end of the tunnel, 4 years of hard work about to be paid off. Everyone I talk to is excited and anxious. My parents and advisors tell me how proud they are and how proud I should be this will be the completion of a major milestone of my life. I couldn’t be more petrified, the light I see is a train and its going to hit hard.
Reading your words was comforting, your summary is how I imagine life occurring slowly blending into my career and out of the break neck pace of doing a million things at once in college. Everything Ive done while my entire world, will be nothing more than resume fluff to help secure that open door. This song and this post call to that fear and turn it from fear into a reflection.
So thank you for helping me regain footing and perspective as I do move into the next chapter. I will have to prove myself to the world again, on a much bigger stage with much more at stake, but looking back I see a great rough draft and Im pretty sure Ive become “more me”
Comment by Joseph February 8, 2010 @ 6:05 amJoseph,
Thank you for the response, it feels so great that people outside of the contributors are reading this blog.
Comment by lcrelyea February 10, 2010 @ 12:56 amI’m really glad that my personal experiences with post-collegiate life and the guidance that “objects of my affection” provided me gave you some comfort. Let me assure you that life regains its momentum after some time in ‘the real world’, but it’s a tune of a different rhythm. It’s your own.